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Tuesday 31 May 2011
Thursday 26 May 2011
A Letter From Former Porn Star - Dedicated to all PORN FILM addict
The Truth Behind the Fantasy of Porn
by : Shelley Lubben, Former Porn Actress
Dedicated to all the porn actresses who caught HIV, died from drug overdose and committed suicide.
Sex-packed porn films featuring freshly-dyed blondes whose evocative eyes say "I want you" is quite possibly one of the greatest deceptions of all time. Trust me, I know. I did it all the time and I did it for the lust of power and the love of money. I never liked sex. I never wanted sex, and in fact I was more apt to spend time with Jack Daniels than some of the studs I was paid to "fake it" with. That's right, none of us freshly-dyed blondes like doing porn. In fact, we hate it. We hate being touched by strangers who care nothing about us. We hate being degraded with their foul smells and sweaty bodies. Some women hate it so much they can be heard vomiting in the bathroom between scenes. Others can be found outside smoking an endless chain of Marlboro lights…
But the porn industry wants YOU to think we porn actresses love sex. They want you to think we enjoy being degraded by all kinds of repulsive acts. The truth, porn actresses have showed up on the set not knowing about certain requirements and were told by porn producers to do it or leave without being paid. Work or never work again. Yes, we made the choice. Some of us needed the money. But we were manipulated and coerced and even threatened. Some of us caught HIV as a result of that coercion. I personally caught Herpes, a non-curable sexually transmitted disease. Another porn actress went home after a long night of numbing her pain and put a pistol to her head and pulled the trigger. Now she's dead.
It's safe to say most women who turn to porn acting as a money-making enterprise, probably didn't grow up in healthy childhoods either. Indeed, many actresses admit they've experienced sexual abuse, physical abuse, verbal abuse and neglect by parents. Some were raped by relatives and molested by neighbors. When we were little girls we wanted to play with dollies and be mommies, not have big scary men get on top of us. So we were taught at a young age that sex made us valuable. The same horrible violations we experienced then, we relive as we perform our tricks in front of the camera. And we hate every minute of it. We're traumatized little girls living on anti-depressants, drugs and alcohol acting out our pain in front of you who continue to abuse us.
As we continue to traumatize ourselves by making more adult films, we use more and more drugs and alcohol. We live in constant fear of catching AIDS and sexually transmitted diseases. Every time there's an HIV scare we race to the nearest clinic for an emergency checkup. Pornographers insist on giving viewers the fantasy sex they demand all the while sacrificing the very ones who make it happen. In other words, no condoms allowed. Herpes, gonorrhea, syphilis, chlamydia, and other diseases are the normal anxieties we walk around with daily. We get tested monthly but we know testing isn't prevention. Besides worrying about catching diseases from porn sex, there are other harmful activities we engage in that are also very dangerous. Some of us have had physical tearing and damage to internal body parts.
When porn actresses call it a day and head home we attempt to have normal healthy relationships, but some of our boyfriends get jealous and physically abuse us. So instead we marry our porn directors, while others prefer lesbian relationships. It's a real memory making moment when our daughter accidentally walks out and sees mommy kissing another girl. My daughter will vouch for that one.
On our days off we walk around like zombies with a beer in one hand and a shot of whiskey in the other. We aren't up to cleaning so we live in filth most of the time, or we hire a sweet foreign lady to come in and clean up our mess. Porn actresses aren't the best cooks either. Ordering in is normal for us and most of the time we throw up after we eat because we're bulimic.
For porn actresses who have children, we are the world's worst mothers. We yell and scream and hit our kids for no reason. Most of the time we are intoxicated or high, and our four year olds are the ones picking us up off the floor. When clients come over for sex, we lock our children in their rooms and tell them to be quiet. I used to give my daughter a beeper and tell her to wait at the park until I was finished.
The truth is there is no fantasy in porn. It's all a lie. A closer look into the scenes of a porn star's life will show you a movie that the porn industry doesn't want you to see. The real truth is we porn actresses want to end the shame and trauma of our lives but we can't do it alone. We need you men to fight for our freedom and give us back our honor. We need you to hold us in your strong arms while we sob tears over our deep wounds and begin to heal. We want you throw out our movies and help piece together the shattered fragments of our lives. We need you to pray for us so God will hear and repair our ruined lives.
So don't believe the lie anymore. Porn is nothing more than fake sex and lies on videotape. Trust me, I know.
www.shelleylubben.com to hear more pornstars share their experiences
by : Shelley Lubben, Former Porn Actress
Dedicated to all the porn actresses who caught HIV, died from drug overdose and committed suicide.
Sex-packed porn films featuring freshly-dyed blondes whose evocative eyes say "I want you" is quite possibly one of the greatest deceptions of all time. Trust me, I know. I did it all the time and I did it for the lust of power and the love of money. I never liked sex. I never wanted sex, and in fact I was more apt to spend time with Jack Daniels than some of the studs I was paid to "fake it" with. That's right, none of us freshly-dyed blondes like doing porn. In fact, we hate it. We hate being touched by strangers who care nothing about us. We hate being degraded with their foul smells and sweaty bodies. Some women hate it so much they can be heard vomiting in the bathroom between scenes. Others can be found outside smoking an endless chain of Marlboro lights…
But the porn industry wants YOU to think we porn actresses love sex. They want you to think we enjoy being degraded by all kinds of repulsive acts. The truth, porn actresses have showed up on the set not knowing about certain requirements and were told by porn producers to do it or leave without being paid. Work or never work again. Yes, we made the choice. Some of us needed the money. But we were manipulated and coerced and even threatened. Some of us caught HIV as a result of that coercion. I personally caught Herpes, a non-curable sexually transmitted disease. Another porn actress went home after a long night of numbing her pain and put a pistol to her head and pulled the trigger. Now she's dead.
It's safe to say most women who turn to porn acting as a money-making enterprise, probably didn't grow up in healthy childhoods either. Indeed, many actresses admit they've experienced sexual abuse, physical abuse, verbal abuse and neglect by parents. Some were raped by relatives and molested by neighbors. When we were little girls we wanted to play with dollies and be mommies, not have big scary men get on top of us. So we were taught at a young age that sex made us valuable. The same horrible violations we experienced then, we relive as we perform our tricks in front of the camera. And we hate every minute of it. We're traumatized little girls living on anti-depressants, drugs and alcohol acting out our pain in front of you who continue to abuse us.
As we continue to traumatize ourselves by making more adult films, we use more and more drugs and alcohol. We live in constant fear of catching AIDS and sexually transmitted diseases. Every time there's an HIV scare we race to the nearest clinic for an emergency checkup. Pornographers insist on giving viewers the fantasy sex they demand all the while sacrificing the very ones who make it happen. In other words, no condoms allowed. Herpes, gonorrhea, syphilis, chlamydia, and other diseases are the normal anxieties we walk around with daily. We get tested monthly but we know testing isn't prevention. Besides worrying about catching diseases from porn sex, there are other harmful activities we engage in that are also very dangerous. Some of us have had physical tearing and damage to internal body parts.
When porn actresses call it a day and head home we attempt to have normal healthy relationships, but some of our boyfriends get jealous and physically abuse us. So instead we marry our porn directors, while others prefer lesbian relationships. It's a real memory making moment when our daughter accidentally walks out and sees mommy kissing another girl. My daughter will vouch for that one.
On our days off we walk around like zombies with a beer in one hand and a shot of whiskey in the other. We aren't up to cleaning so we live in filth most of the time, or we hire a sweet foreign lady to come in and clean up our mess. Porn actresses aren't the best cooks either. Ordering in is normal for us and most of the time we throw up after we eat because we're bulimic.
For porn actresses who have children, we are the world's worst mothers. We yell and scream and hit our kids for no reason. Most of the time we are intoxicated or high, and our four year olds are the ones picking us up off the floor. When clients come over for sex, we lock our children in their rooms and tell them to be quiet. I used to give my daughter a beeper and tell her to wait at the park until I was finished.
The truth is there is no fantasy in porn. It's all a lie. A closer look into the scenes of a porn star's life will show you a movie that the porn industry doesn't want you to see. The real truth is we porn actresses want to end the shame and trauma of our lives but we can't do it alone. We need you men to fight for our freedom and give us back our honor. We need you to hold us in your strong arms while we sob tears over our deep wounds and begin to heal. We want you throw out our movies and help piece together the shattered fragments of our lives. We need you to pray for us so God will hear and repair our ruined lives.
So don't believe the lie anymore. Porn is nothing more than fake sex and lies on videotape. Trust me, I know.
www.shelleylubben.com to hear more pornstars share their experiences
p/s : Porn Stars a human too, they do have feeling & love to be treated well...
credits to : tehtarikgelasbesar.blogspot.com
Wednesday 25 May 2011
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Tuesday 24 May 2011
Monday 23 May 2011
Apa kes Sanggul Tinggi ni?
Heboh isu sanggul tinggi ni di mana-mana terutamanya di blog-blog, kebanyakannya mengutuk fesyen sanggul tinggi ni, siap cakap orang bersanggul tinggi ni masuk neraka jannah! ada pula tu disamakannya pula perempuan bersanggul tinggi dengan kepala alien..hahahaha..yang bijak lebih sikit, siap bentang lagi hadis-hadis berkenaan sanggul tinggi ni..
Alahai..sibuk benar dengan sanggul tinggi ni..dulu-dulu takde pun kecoh-kecoh pasal ni, bila jadi trend barulah semua sibuk-sibuk korek sana-sini cari hadis berkaitan..islamic sangat lah konon!...yang sumbang-mahram, membunuh, merogol, zina sana-sini takde pula orang nak sibuk, alih-alih isu sanggul tinggi juga yang top!
Macamlah perempuan bersanggul tinggi buat dosa besar sangat sampai telah di'confirm'kan tempatnya di neraka..hahaha.. hanya sebab bersanggul tinggi je boleh masuk neraka ke?..jadi sia-sialah semua amalan mereka ni sebab alim macamana pun, baik macamna pun, ikhlas macamana pun, mereka akan tetap masuk neraka hanya disebabkan sanggul tinggi mereka! haiyooo....
Kenapalah fikiran cetek sangat, kalau orang yang minat dengan islam terbaca isu-isu begini mesti diorang akan kata susahnya menjadi islam...sedangkan apa yang diberitahu islam itu memudahkan, apa yang mudahnya kalau bersanggul pun boleh masuk neraka? ingat ada ke orang nak masuk neraka free-free hanya kerana bersanggul??
Inilah kenyataan sebenar manusia yang sudah diasuh sejak kecil lagi dengan sifat/sikap iri-hati dan dengki-mendengki..maka, apa saja yang nampak lebih pada orang lain dia mesti akan buat 'bunyi' punya...siap kaitkan isu agama lagi supaya nampak segalanya salah dan tak betul pada orang lain dan semuanya yang baik-baik sahaja pada dia sebab dia tak buat! so?? yang kau mengutuk, dengki, iri-hati tu apa?? itu lagi parah kak ooiii...itu namanya penyakit hati!!
Jadi daripada dok sakit hati kat orang lain, lagi baik kita sama-sama tilik-menilik diri sendiri..mana tau ada terkurang ke, terlebih ke..sama-samalah kita perbaiki diri. Terima Kasih.
Ulasan DRMAZA mengenai Hukum Wanita Bersanggul : SINI
Alahai..sibuk benar dengan sanggul tinggi ni..dulu-dulu takde pun kecoh-kecoh pasal ni, bila jadi trend barulah semua sibuk-sibuk korek sana-sini cari hadis berkaitan..islamic sangat lah konon!...yang sumbang-mahram, membunuh, merogol, zina sana-sini takde pula orang nak sibuk, alih-alih isu sanggul tinggi juga yang top!
Macamlah perempuan bersanggul tinggi buat dosa besar sangat sampai telah di'confirm'kan tempatnya di neraka..hahaha.. hanya sebab bersanggul tinggi je boleh masuk neraka ke?..jadi sia-sialah semua amalan mereka ni sebab alim macamana pun, baik macamna pun, ikhlas macamana pun, mereka akan tetap masuk neraka hanya disebabkan sanggul tinggi mereka! haiyooo....
Kenapalah fikiran cetek sangat, kalau orang yang minat dengan islam terbaca isu-isu begini mesti diorang akan kata susahnya menjadi islam...sedangkan apa yang diberitahu islam itu memudahkan, apa yang mudahnya kalau bersanggul pun boleh masuk neraka? ingat ada ke orang nak masuk neraka free-free hanya kerana bersanggul??
Inilah kenyataan sebenar manusia yang sudah diasuh sejak kecil lagi dengan sifat/sikap iri-hati dan dengki-mendengki..maka, apa saja yang nampak lebih pada orang lain dia mesti akan buat 'bunyi' punya...siap kaitkan isu agama lagi supaya nampak segalanya salah dan tak betul pada orang lain dan semuanya yang baik-baik sahaja pada dia sebab dia tak buat! so?? yang kau mengutuk, dengki, iri-hati tu apa?? itu lagi parah kak ooiii...itu namanya penyakit hati!!
Jadi daripada dok sakit hati kat orang lain, lagi baik kita sama-sama tilik-menilik diri sendiri..mana tau ada terkurang ke, terlebih ke..sama-samalah kita perbaiki diri. Terima Kasih.
p/s : Tajdidkan minda...jangan JUMUD!
Ulasan DRMAZA mengenai Hukum Wanita Bersanggul : SINI
Wednesday 18 May 2011
Aku Tidak Puas
Salam Semua,
Ini bukan blog lucah! walaupun mungkin tajuk diatas kelihatan lucah. Ini juga bukan cerita Mak Kiah Jual Pisang Goreng Panas atau Pak Mamat lepak di gerai minum seteko teh'O'. Ini adalah blog yang ditulis oleh seorang saya yang benar-benar mahu memberikan 'sepenuh jiwa'nya kepada penulisan tanpa genre. Penulisan yang lahir dari hati, terbit dari minda, dan dicurahkan dengan rasa. Maka sesiapa yang merasakan blog ini bukanlah blog siapa-siapa ataupun apa-apa, anda dipersilakan untuk TIDAK mengambil peduli segala bentuk tulisan yang akan dipaparkan dalam blog ini.
Ini bukan blog lucah! walaupun mungkin tajuk diatas kelihatan lucah. Ini juga bukan cerita Mak Kiah Jual Pisang Goreng Panas atau Pak Mamat lepak di gerai minum seteko teh'O'. Ini adalah blog yang ditulis oleh seorang saya yang benar-benar mahu memberikan 'sepenuh jiwa'nya kepada penulisan tanpa genre. Penulisan yang lahir dari hati, terbit dari minda, dan dicurahkan dengan rasa. Maka sesiapa yang merasakan blog ini bukanlah blog siapa-siapa ataupun apa-apa, anda dipersilakan untuk TIDAK mengambil peduli segala bentuk tulisan yang akan dipaparkan dalam blog ini.
Wednesday 11 May 2011
Bangganya bila dapat Mencarut dalam BLOG
Mencarut dalam blog seakan menjadi Trend akhir-akhir ini, masuk ja mana-mana blog mesti akan ada satu-dua entri yang mengandungi perkataan ": Gila, Pxxxmak!, Bodoh, Sial, Fxxk You,Bongok, Bitch, Bull Shit!dan macam-macam lagi perkataan yang sewaktu dengannya..dan yang paling best entry yang disulami dengan perkataan-perkataan itu merupakan enrty-entry yang mendapat komen terbanyak..yang peliknya antara tajuk entry mencarut itu ialah TAZKIRAH..tetapi isinya?? ..tazkirah dalam bahasa mencarut ke kak oooiii?
Ada lagi satu blog tu dia dok cerita jangan malukan mak bapak dengan dengan perangai macam hantu, tapi dia pula dengan tidak sedar dirinya guna perkataan mencarut, apa tu? mak bapa dia ajar dia mencarut dari kecik ke? ataupun mak bapak dia tak kesah dia guna bahasa mencarut sebab perangai mak bapaknya pun sama sahaja suka mencarut...bak kata pepatah "Bapak borek anak rintik".
Itu belum lagi dengan entry-entry memaki-hamun sehingga menyentuh sensitiviti seseorang, bangsa dan agama..bila tengok muka diorang tu nampak benar tak kena..tengok sekilas nampak macam baik je, tapi tengok bahasa..perghhh..boleh tahan! ada pula tu yang kalau dilihat dari cara dia menulis memang nampak 'educated' lagi..tapi minda tahap 'Low Class'...dia fikir dirinya hebat sangat, nampak lagi maha 'stupid' adalah.
Kesiannya, tidak tepat kalau dikatakan bahasa tu jiwa bangsa kalau rata-rata 'bangsa'nya mencarut-marut, mungkin disebabkan sudah sebati dengan penyakit Iri hati, dengki-mendengki..jadi mencarut itulah cara paling popular untuk menghina atau merendahkan orang lain.
Akhir sekali, ini bukan tazkirah untuk menyedarkan 'mereka-mereka' itu, tiada gunanya! ini hanyalah peringatan kepada saya supaya tidak dengan sengaja merendahkan martabat ibu-bapa saya juga diri saya sendiri bila mencarut suka hati. Adios!
Joker : manusia tidak pernah sempurna
Tuesday 3 May 2011
luluhkan hatiku...
Indah ungkap bahasanya
Halus isi maksudnya
Tajam erti penanya
Menusuk jiwa kandungannya....
Dedicate to : http://helmysamad.blogspot.com
Halus isi maksudnya
Tajam erti penanya
Menusuk jiwa kandungannya....
Dedicate to : http://helmysamad.blogspot.com
Sunday 1 May 2011
The Starter
Hi peeps!
This is it!
I finally got my OWN space..
And i will only telling the truth
For the whole truth!
This is it!
I finally got my OWN space..
And i will only telling the truth
For the whole truth!
Wait & watch me OUT!
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